Old habits die hard

Posted by: Barkha |  Personals  | 7/16/2007 6:02:13 AM

' I love walking into trouble, infact I follow it when it tries to move away'. This is something I once told a friend and he started laughing. "Sounds absurd", he said. Sure it does but a fact of my life.

Maybe I was given a lot of responsibilty at a very young age and didnt know how to handle it. But now I believe I am old enough. The complications are not the same or as many, but the confusion still remains or maybe saying that it has multiplied manifold wont be incorrect.

As you grow older I thought your professional goals overtake your personal goals, but I was wrong or maybe just partially wrong.

My personal life was going great, atleast for a while. But professionally there was a lot to achieve. I achieved a lot more than I really expected and the career front looked great. But good things dont last too long and my personal life suddenly came to a point, from where I believed there wouldnt be a better phase.

A lot happened, I gave myself time and life didnt seem so bad anymore. Infact, I was happy, happier than I had been in years.

But suddenly my habit of walking into trouble had the better of me and I, inspite of knowing what was in store for me gladly walked in.

The next couple of months were tumultous in the true sense. But every dark cloud does have a silver lining.

I was told about a great opportunity at work, something that I had waited for, worked for and prayed for. It was now only a matter of time.

But of course nothing comes easy and the great opportunity just kept getting delayed. There came a time when I knew nothing good would ever happen to me. But my life is a see-saw.

Suddenly on the personal front things were brighter.  And because I walked into trouble a couple of months ago.

Today when both my personal and professional life is looking up, I realize not all habits, good or bad yield results that you expect them to. Sometimes, life decides to flow down the wrong lane but sooner or later changes its course. Its only a matter of time.